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Number VIII; AXEL

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XVIIII. [Tuesday, March 6th, 2007 @ 7:34pm]
For a second, I thought I could portal the fuck out of here when we docked in Amestris, but all it got me was a one-way trip back to the ship. Fuck.

I made the most of it at least.

...

What kind of guy snaps his fingers and makes sparks? He called it flame alchemy and then proceeded to berate my style of "crude" pyromancy.

Showed him "crude" when I lit a fire under his ass and got chased off the base by a bunch of bluesuits.

They sure flipped their shit when they tried to shoot at me. What a fun world.

... hey -- blonde midget!

Tell me more about a-l-c-h-e-m-y.
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XVIII. [Sunday, February 11th, 2007 @ 3:03am]
[ mood | crushed ]

It's... it feels empty on board now.

How--? Did he...?

Why does it make me... feel...



... like...

... whatever. Fuck him. Kids are a waste of my damned time.



DEMYX! You up for having a wagon race down the stairs?

I found the brig too I think I wasn't supposed to. It's icky and dark. I dare someone to stay down there all alone a whole hour.

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XVII. [Saturday, February 3rd, 2007 @ 7:26pm]
-- the shit is this bitch work?

You people are fucking nasty. I am throwing bleach on all of your sheets.


Oh, and if your underwear comes back to you pink... it was deliberate.



No one ever said I had to do my job "well" -- got it memorized?
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XVI. [Thursday, January 18th, 2007 @ 2:51pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

I have been propositioned so many times since I've grown tits.

And no, I will not work in the fucking club as a stripper.

Great as multiple orgasms are, I miss my cock and I'm sick and fucking tired of all these moody bitches -- bitches that are actually men. Can this curse PLEASE be over before I start my period too?

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XV. [Tuesday, January 2nd, 2007 @ 1:49pm]
It's funny.

I didn't think a nobody could miss much more, but it feels like I'm missing something -- besides the obvious that ironically substantiates my entire existence... as it was.

I'm missing... something more important than life itself. But I don't know what it is.



Sora? How do you... feel?




Take good care of it.



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XIV. [Wednesday, December 20th, 2006 @ 11:09am]
... I want off this ship.

Oblivion is better than this.

But--

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XIII...? [Saturday, December 16th, 2006 @ 1:53pm]
On the twelfth day of Christmas, ofdancingflames sent to me...
Twelve emotions drumming
Eleven hearts piping
Ten roxas a-leaping
Nine pranks dancing
Eight chakrams a-milking
Seven firestarters a-swimming
Six heatwaves a-laying
Five che-e-e-eckers
Four finding roxas
Three best friends
Two burning things
...and an arson in a number xiii.
Get your own Twelve Days:






Um~ what?
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XII. [Friday, December 1st, 2006 @ 8:16pm]
... I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.

I. Hate. Snow.

It's so... so... c-c-c-cold.

And just to make a good day perfect, here comes the Superior. Who invited him?

Keyboy neglected to mention he got the big boss too.

Party's over, guys or at least mine is.

... guess that's where all the heartless are coming from?

Heh. With all this I'm almost starting to feel at home.

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XI. [Monday, November 13th, 2006 @ 4:47pm]
Alright, alright, alright, so check this out.

Every time I burp, I breathe fire. Fire -- out of my mouth. Isn't that cool hot? I'm fucking flammable, baby.

What is this shit? V-o-d-...k-a?

...

Hehehe... he.

... nn, isn't there somethin' 'bout mixing... stuff... with stuff...

Something.

fdshjkfs Hell yeah, they're playing my song. I don't have time fodkj tyupfdnk



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X. [Wednesday, November 8th, 2006 @ 3:57pm]
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Are there any humans on this ship or did everyone get turned into something fuzzy or scaley?

I hope the Captain is yucking it up, especially when it starts to stink here.

On the plus side I've gotten pretty cozy with regular grooming by my faceless servants. They can be very useful if you let them.
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IX. [Friday, November 3rd, 2006 @ 9:35am]
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What the hell is this?

Well, at least I'm foxy. Alright, bad pun.

All you little critters better steer clear; I'm hungry.

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VIII. [Saturday, October 28th, 2006 @ 9:07am]
I wish I were able to dream. I heard dreams can indulge your most deep-seated fantasy, bring out your worst nightmare, or recreate your favorite memory.

Heh. But nobodies don't dream. We're merely facets of something whole.

I'd sleep forever if I could relive those times when I had something.

I thought I felt something with the Keyblade Master, but at this point I can't tell if it was real or obsessive wishing.

I've been here a good few weeks now and nothing is any more real, starting with my reborn nothing existence. That right there doesn't even begin to make sense to me... but it's what I am.

I'd care about the brunette and what I'm doing to him... but I can't care.

He knows what he is to me. Maybe he can learn to benefit from this.

That's all life is without love -- using. Getting ahead.

I can't grab ahold of these emotions. I know the tangible; concrete things that leave marks I can feel.

Pain I can deal with; I can enjoy pain.

I am feeling through the boy -- is that wrong?

I wouldn't know.

If I cared, would it matter?

If I felt anything, by the time it's all over I don't feel a thing, But I can remember each and every expression he made.

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VII. [Tuesday, October 10th, 2006 @ 8:10pm]
I'm starting to wonder if what Null said isn't far from the truth.

If our history has actually been erased. I think it's nothing but wishful thinking when his eyes light up, injecting what I interpret to be a flyaway memory or a kindling of remembrance. He doesn't really remember me.

He stayed with me last night, and I wonder how long I can wait, living in his memory.

He's Roxas, but he's not my Roxas. Will he ever be? I'm not very good with patience. I'm burning up, and I don't know how long I can wait for the unknown. It's like waiting for a miracle. Even if I tried to reintroduce myself to him, I know what I'm getting to know: a teenaged boy from Twilight Town -- not the moody nobody who once liked to play with fire. He haunts me.

I'd question my heart -- y'know if I had one.

I want someone to make me feel like someone. Another thing I've forgotten. What you look like in someone else's eyes. I think it felt... fulfilling?

Maybe I'm just like them, searching for what can make me whole again -- even if it's not exactly Kingdom Hearts.

...

Where could my keyboy be? Sora, I want you to come see me. We need to have a little heart to heart.



I'd like to meet these new faces I'm seeing. I want to make more friends to plsy with. I'm getting--dare I say bored?
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VI. [Sunday, October 1st, 2006 @ 2:41am]
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The second I decide I want to go to my room and just be alone, I'm suddenly being barged in on by an entourage of those faceless... things. They came in with an obvious agenda because there were a ton of them. I melted the first line of defense easy enough, and as I'm winging a chakram out at the next drove, next thing I know I'm soaking wet... which doesn't go over very well with me.

It must have been their plan to distract me 'cause they were all over me, literally stripping me. I bet anyone could hear it down the hall (and if you could, thanks a lot for helping assholes).

Turns out all they wanted to do was change my wardrobe; they ran off with my coat.

Uh, couldn't you have just asked?

... and I'll be needing that coat back; it's got sentimental value.
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V. [Thursday, September 14th, 2006 @ 4:52am]
It's raining.

Why won't it stop raining?

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I guess I am by myself.

Somehow it's even worse to see him--to know he's here and unable to do a damned thing but watch him.

I don't want to do it again.

I want him to remember, but not if he can't do it on his own.

Just looking at him reminds me of everything I lack when he acts so... so normal.

He and his someone.

I should be used to flying solo. It's what I do, and I do it well. No allegiance to anyone. No drama. No problem.

Since when did being alone feel so... lonely?




Null, let's make a deal. I'm starting to forget his name...
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IV. [Thursday, September 7th, 2006 @ 3:11am]
I'm on tonight
You know my hips don't lie
And I'm starting to feel you boy~! ♪


SFSHDJK@^&@*&@W!!!

... can't... stop... singing...

Please kill m--

Mira en Barranquilla se baila así! ♪

...

Someone sing something ELSE - QUICK.




( ooc: Yeah, he's hating life I bet. I wasn't gonna give him a song he'd actually like. )
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III. [Wednesday, August 30th, 2006 @ 8:23am]
How am I supposed to have any fun here if I just get punished for it?

That little prick--!

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He knows exactly where to hit to hurt.

How the fuck am I supposed to find him if I can't even say his name?!


In spite of this bullshit, they've got some nice rooms here. And I have to say that I like the constant motion of the box-car-type level I'm staying on. What do they call them? It's like a train yet... not.

And stranger yet is that when I open the door to get into my room, there's this great whoosh of air underneath like I'm stepping out... and the room itself is quiet and still like it's not even attached to the deck. Still cool, though. Think I'll go see how hot the shower can get.



Sora~
Say his name.
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II. [Monday, August 28th, 2006 @ 2:07am]
I can't get back into the boiler room. I can't even get to it through the elevator. It's as if it's off-limits. Wonder why.

And of all the people to run into, you give me the Keyblade Master?

I don't even know what to do with that...

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Anyone seen a short, sulky, blue-eyed blonde on board?

This place isn't so bad once you get to exploring. Just wish there was more room for me to play without catching the floorboards on fire.


Hey, Sora! Wanna play a game of hide and seek while we search? If you lose, you walk the plank.
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I. [Saturday, August 26th, 2006 @ 1:49am]
...


Isn't it true that something can't come from nothing? ... and all things born of darkness must eventually return to darkness? My kind are insignificant and our very existence is... nonexistent.

Right.. Huh...

If that's so, then what am I doing here?

Have I been given a second chance?

Funny.

Without something to "live" for, I don't want it.

Is this what the afterlife is for a nobody -- aboard a dingy ship that could be flying or sailing (I haven't even begun to figure that one out) through ocean or space... Where exactly are we supposed to be going anyway? Is this some kind of fucked up cruise liner to Hell?

Well, count me in anyway. I'm here for the ride, I suppose, whether or want to or not.

Heh. Believe me, I attempted right away to high-tail it off this creepy vessel.

Just in case anyone thinks they can teleport out, well... I got as far as one end of the hallway to the other. Not sure if that's due to the fact that I'm dead or that staying here is some form of cosmic punishment.

Look, I gave my life (or what of it) for the kid, okay? Wasn't that enough?

No?

It doesn't matter. I'll make quick work of this decrepit boat.

... nothing really matters if the one thing that made me feel like "something" is missing.

I was kind of looking forward to waking up to my next life.

Maybe I could have seen him again.

... but I guess this is all I've got.


I have to find a hot place. It's freezing on deck... and I know those things are staring me down even if they don't have eyes to see.

Talk about eerie with a capital "E"...



OOC: If you haven't gathered, Axel's storyline is set post-KH2. Feel free to ask me about it if there is any confusion or discrepancy. I promise it is a good idea. ♥ And if you don't want to be spoiled, you might want to... uh, avoid Axel for a while until you've played all the way through. x3

Anyway, Axel is down in the boiler room where he will encounter Sora... and once they emerge the doors will seal behind them since that is one of the taboo areas... and there may be repercussions for their actions. A log will be presented ASAP.
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